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Chapter 7 - Things That Don't Apologize

The days didn't blur anymore.

They sharpened.

Each one sliced a little deeper into the fabric of Rekha's old life — the roles, the expectations, the trained silences — and with every cut, something brighter bled out of her.

She no longer walked through her home like a ghost.She glided. Owned it.She still cooked, cleaned, folded clothes — but now with a certain defiance, a rhythm that was hers and not inherited.

Ashok didn't notice the change.Or maybe he did, and just didn't know how to name it.

It started with the mirrors.

Rekha had always avoided them.

Not out of insecurity, but out of habit. Her body had long been reduced to function — what it could lift, bend, cook, endure. It had not been a body of beauty or hunger for years.

But now, she paused at every reflection.

In the hallway. In the lift. In the balcony's glass door at dusk.

She looked. Really looked.

Not for wrinkles or flaws.But for proof.

That she still existed.That she was still… happening.

Her skin felt different.

Not because Ishan touched it — but because she touched it after.

She moisturized now. Carefully. Not like a chore. But like ritual.

Her hands remembered where they had been, and her fingers, once stiff with routine, had learned again how to linger.

Ishan didn't come for two days.

He texted.

Late at night, always.

Not needy. Not pushy.

Just messages that felt like fingertips on her thigh.

Ishan: I can still smell you.

Ishan: I'm trying to sleep, and you're the noise.

Ishan: I want to press my mouth between your ribs and wait for you to melt.

She didn't always reply.

But she read every one. Twice.

And each time, her body remembered exactly how to ache.

On Wednesday afternoon, Rekha received a call from her sister-in-law.

Not a close one. Just a formal, seasonal courtesy.

"How are you, Rekha? You sound… well."

"I am well."

"Still taking care of that useless man, ha?"

Rekha laughed, not denying it.

There was power in not correcting people anymore.

Let them think what they want.

She had stopped managing others' impressions of her.

That, too, was liberation.

Thursday, Seema visited again.

It wasn't a surprise. She came often. But this time, she didn't come alone.

She brought her younger cousin, a woman in her early thirties named Vani.

Vani was outspoken, beautiful in an unfiltered way, with short hair and eyeliner that didn't care who approved.

The three women sat in the drawing room. Rekha served tea.

Conversation started with the usual — saree sales, rising vegetable prices, complaints about maids.

But it shifted.

Vani leaned back and asked, "Rekha-akka, what's your secret?"

Rekha blinked. "Secret?"

"You walk like you don't owe this house anything."

Seema chuckled. "She's right, you know. You used to be... quieter."

Rekha smiled into her cup. "Maybe I just stopped waiting for someone to see me."

Vani tilted her head. "Sounds dangerous. And sexy."

"I didn't say I stopped caring. I just started... choosing."

Vani raised her cup. "To that."

They all sipped, and something electric passed through them — woman to woman, quietly defiant.

That night, Ishan sent a voice note.

Just 14 seconds long.

"Your laugh lives in my throat. I can't cough without tasting it."

She replayed it three times.

Didn't reply.

But she didn't delete it either.

On Friday, Ashok made a rare gesture.He suggested going out for dinner.

"It's been ages," he muttered over his tea. "There's a new Punjabi place. Biryani's supposed to be good."

Rekha nodded. "Okay."

She didn't resist.Didn't push.It wasn't worth the energy.

But in her mind, she dressed herself like armor.

She wore black that night.

A blouse slightly lower than usual. Kajal slightly thicker. A necklace with weight.

Ashok didn't say anything about her look.

Just picked at the biryani and complained about the noise.

They barely spoke through dinner.

At one point, a song played in the restaurant — a soft, moaning old ghazal that once would've made her tear up.

Now, she just listened.

Felt her body sway a little under the table.Remembered fingers on her back.A breath behind her ear.

Ashok noticed nothing.

When they got home, he fell asleep in front of the TV, snoring before midnight.

Rekha stood at the bedroom window, fully clothed, hair loose.

Her phone buzzed.

Ishan: Were you with him?

She didn't lie.

Rekha: Yes.

Ishan: Did he see you?

She stared at that question.

Then typed:

Rekha: He looked. But he didn't see.

Saturday evening, Rekha cooked something new. Spicy mutton curry, thick with ghee and garlic.

Not for Ashok.

For herself.

She poured wine. Just a little.

And sat on the balcony with a plate in her lap, eating with her hands, licking her fingers.

When her phone buzzed again, she was already smiling.

Ishan: I want to see you tonight.

She replied without delay.

Rekha: After 11. You know the sound the lock makes. Don't knock.

At 11:07, the lock clicked.

He entered like water — quiet, fluid, hungry.

She didn't speak.

Just kissed him.

Hard.

Pushed him against the wall, bit his lip, pulled his shirt until buttons scattered on the floor.

Her hands were no longer shy.

They claimed.

Unbuckled his belt, dropped his jeans, knelt.

She took him in her mouth without a word — slow, deep, fierce.

He gasped, grabbed the doorframe, moaned her name like prayer.

When he tried to pull her up, she pushed him down.

Straddled him on the cold tile floor, saree hitched around her waist, chest bare.

She rode him like she had a purpose.

Because she did.

She needed to know she could.

She needed to see herself lose control and still remain whole.

He grabbed her hips, begged.

She didn't stop.

She didn't stop until they both broke.

Sweat-slick. Shaking.

Satisfied.

They lay there, tangled on the floor, breathing loud and raw.

Ishan looked at her like she was magic and madness at once.

"You scare me," he whispered again.

"Good," she said. "I'm done apologizing for that."

Later, in the dark, she asked, "Why me?"

He turned on his side, traced the edge of her shoulder with his lips.

"Because you're the only woman I've ever met who makes silence feel like thunder."

She didn't answer.

Just curled into him.

Slept like she hadn't in years.

Morning came with no guilt.

Just the smell of sweat, the stickiness of thighs, the ache of satisfaction.

She showered. Made tea. Gave him one cup, handed with a wink.

He kissed her forehead before leaving.

No promises.

Just presence.

Sunday came.

Ashok wanted to go visit his sister.

Rekha said no.

"I have things to do," she said.

"What things?"

"My own things."

He stared at her.

She didn't flinch.

She sat alone at noon, painting her toenails.

Bright red.

Not because she was going anywhere.

But because she wanted to see color where there used to be dust.

That evening, she saw herself again in the glass.

Hair wild.

Eyes lined.

Mouth swollen with memory.

She touched her lips and smiled.

No longer afraid.No longer ashamed.No longer waiting.

Because some things —Desire.Truth.Freedom.Love that isn't quiet —They don't apologize.

And neither did she.

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