Hey, Kid.
Hey, Folks.
It has been a long month already, lbvs!
Death in the family.
That is always tough to deal with, you know?
My cousin shot himself in the head this past weekend.
He didn't survive.
The "love of his life" left him.
I wish I could have gotten a chance to talk to him.
Tell him that it would be okay, and that there are more people to love...
I know the feeling, I've been single since 2022, you know?
I had to walk away from the woman whom I thought was the love of MY life...
It was the hardest thing that I ever had to do, and I had to fight off a lot of very...self-destructive thoughts. I often thought about just leaving this world, but I didn't, and I am happier for that decision.
Not all of us are so strong...so blessed, and that's okay.
It's okay to not be okay, you know?
Just reach out before you make a choice that can't be undone.
I will leave it at that.
Enjoy.
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November 7th, 2018.
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Dear You.
It's been a long year.
Each one seems to top the other in some crazy way.
(I wrote that earlier, probably before coffee.) *An anime-style smile was drawn here.
I don't know, but I am still at work.
I'm always at work.
That's part of the reason why I...why you haven't been born yet.
We work so much to make ends meet.
Everything costs so much.
I mean, let's compare prices.
(My time Vs Yours.)
Average fast food hamburger: $1.99-6.99.
Bag of chips: $1.69 or two for $3.00.
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This one was short, yeah?
Let's see what we have to work with.
-I suppose that for some reason, my life became just a bit more interesting with each passing year. I have always been one for experiences over material things, so this may contribute to that. Go make memories, Kid. Life is so very short.
-I was ALWAYS at work, and you know something? I am still quite that way.
The difference is that I was working to escape back then.
My pain...
My loneliness...
My life...
My significant other...
I was working to get away from the things that made me happy, and those things were the same things that I was working to maintain...
Looking back now, I see how wild, how stupid, how "In love" that kind of crap is.
I was in a very unhealthy relationship, and I was expecting love and happiness.
Foolish of me, Kid lol.
Listen, Kid.
Folks.
Go where you are loved and wanted.
Don't settle.
Don't sit around and wait for someone to start loving you.
Love will come to you naturally, and it will feel natural.
Not forced, or begged for, or chased.
Live and let live, and love will find you when it is meant to, you know?
Hopefully, it will find me too.
Then, just maybe then...YOU could maybe be born.
A boy can dream.
A man now.
How time passes before we even realize.
I left my fiancé in 2022, you know?
I thought that I would find love relatively easily, had I looked.
I was very wrong lol.
Huh...such is life.
Maybe I just gave all of my love away to the wrong people, so for that reason, I can no longer receive love?
I don't know.
Love is...complicated. Elusive.
Not meant for some of us, apparently.
I've gotten to the point where I am starting not to care so much for the love, and I just want YOU.
If only...
-Prices? Let's see what Google has to say, yeah?
2018 Fast food burger: $1.99/$6.99
2025 Fast food burger: $3.62/$8.41
2018 Bag of chips: $1.69 or two for $3.00.
2025 Bag of chips: $2.49/$4.79 or two for $5.00/$8.00
Funny how things change, and in what ways, you know?
I remember when bags of chips were just $1.25, and the smaller bags were four for $1.00, lmao
I will be 37 this year, and chips haven't been that "affordable" for quite some time.
Hell, try eating healthy in North America! LMAOOOOO
I was a vegetarian for just under four years, and it was suuuuuuper expensive lol.
Such is our paradox: A hamburger is just $4.00, but a salad is $10.00.
At this rate, we will never evolve healthier habits lol.
-Enough of that drab, sad talk, lbvs.
I hope that the next entry finds you all well, and that I can bring you better news, you know?
On a parting note, Old journals of a millennial. Volume two just picked up 4484 views overnight!
I can't imagine that my childhood, and early 20's were THAT interesting lol, but shit, I love and appreciate each and every reader out there!
I will leave you all at that.
Try to keep your head up, yeah?
Life can get hard, Kid.
Just don't let it get you to the point where you...check out for good.
Just come find me.
Please.
I love you.
Wherever you are.
See you back here soon, yeah?
This place that only WE know.
Safe travels, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Dad.